"If you could have anything in life, what would it be?"
"I want endless amount of money (me being materialistic and half-lying) and just happy."
Then she said,
"Happy? Itu jak kau mau?"
Yes. I only want to be happy. Because I'm a human, and humans are actually chasing for an eternal happiness.
Orang usaha kuat-kuat, mahu capai impian yang tinggi, sebab mahukan kebahagiaan. Orang berhenti belajar, sebab tidak mahu terikat dengan peraturan sekolah, pun sebab dia mahukan kegembiraan. Orang Islam, sentiasa solat 5 waktu, berzikir kepadaNya, puasa, bayar zakat, beriman, untuk mencari kebahagiaan yang abadi di syurga nanti.
And in the end, mereka just curious. Sebab instead of just listening, they criticize everything. They judge. So apalah point of talking? I'm not the one who's talking, dorang yang sibuk mengkritik betapa salahnya perasaan yang saya rasakan sedangkan dorang tidak tau cerita saya.
Home might equal to happiness to some people, tapi bukan saya. I am happy with my family, but this isn't happiness.
That's all for today. Farewell from and to the other side. Assalamualaikum. xoxoxoxoxo
Update: I was in a very dark place when I wrote this. Please don't mind anything that I wrote. My mind wasn't in a good shape during this phase. I don't want to delete this because it holds something in my heart.