Solitude | a poem to describe my day

Laugh, and the world laughs with you;
Weep, and you weep alone;
For the sad old earth must borrow its mirth,
But has trouble enough of its own.
Sing, and the hills will answer;
Sigh, it is lost on the air;
The echoes bound to a joyful sound,
But shrink from voicing care.

Rejoice, and men will seek you;
Grieve, and they turn and go;
They want full measure of all your pleasure,
But they do not need your woe.
Be glad, and your friends are many;
Be sad, and you lose them all,
There are none to decline your nectared wine,
But alone you must drink life's gall.

Feast, and your halls are crowded;
Fast, and the world goes by.
Succeed and give, and it helps you live,
But no man can help you die.
There is room in the halls of pleasure
For a large and lordly train,
But one by one we must all file on
Through the narrow aisles of pain.

- Ella Wheeler Wilcox

P.S. I hate myself these past weeks. I'm being oversensitive over simple things, it's so irrational and so not me. It's meanie and quite b*tchy. And no matter how much I feel guilty about me being a meanie, I keep doing it over and over again. Oh, and I eat too much too. Maybe it's stress. Maybe it's SPM. But it's very irrational.

Pypaa. xx


The love that you deserve | a short post

"You deserve someone who loves you with every single beat of his heart, someone who thinks about you constantly, someone who spends every minute of every day just wondering what you're doing, where you are, who you're with and if you're OK. You need someone who can help you reach your dreams and who can protect you from your fears. You need someone who will treat you with respect, love every part of you, especially your flaws. You should be with someone who can make you happy, really happy, dancing-on-air happy. Someone who should have taken the chance to be with you years ago instead of becoming scared and being too afraid to try."

I want to talk about this quote, but I find nothing to be talked about. So just read, and let the words speak to you.

Lots of love for this book and the movie adaptation. I don't think I'll ever be bored of the movie, this is my comfort book/movie and one of the books/movies that can make me cry and cry again no matter how much I've read/watch them. It's amazing, wonderful and hold a special place in my heart.

P.S. I posted a book review for 'Love, Rosie' a while ago. In case if you want to know more about it, you may check them out 😊

Lots of love,


The Blue Sky Tag

Hello guys :) How was your week? Is it great? I hope it's going well and you're in a happy state. As for me, it has been a hectic week, what with the forum competition, my upcoming exam, and the upcoming camping festival (yes, a camping festival. what school organize a camping festival?). I've been busy, I feel like I can't breathe at all. This is life.

So, in April, I was tagged by Afifah Addnan. Then, not so long after that, I was tagged by Tqa London. Thank you to both of you for tagging me, I really love doing tags and I'm sure that I'll enjoy answering these questions😄

The Rules:

1. Thank the person who tagged you.
2. Answer their 11 questions.
3. Tag 11 people (I'm 80% sure that the people that I tag wouldn't reach 11)
4. Give them 11 questions to answer (And this. I love answering, but I'm never a good questioner)

The Questions (Afifah Addnan's):

1. What was the last movie you watched?

I re-watched one of the Harry Potter movies, I'm not really sure which one. My little brothers are binge watching them and I join them a lot of times (and spoil a lot of parts to them). I should not ruin the magical world of Harry Potter for my brothers but I can't help myself. 

2. What are you trying to achieve with your blog?

I just want to write a lot of posts that can people can relate to and help them. More towards writing posts with good quality. I can't set my goals too high right now, since I have commitments to much bigger things (SPM, school, and things).

3. Do you think that you are someone with sense of humor?

I hope so, but I'm not. A lot of things that are funny to me are not funny to other people and I find a lot of things that people find funny not as funny. Only my brothers and best friends get my sense of humor. I always need to explain people the meaning behind my jokes so that's that. Maybe you can tell me how to be funnier? I'm serious, help me.

4. Imagine 10 years ago. How does that make you feel about yourself now?

I was 6, and for some reasons, that was the age of my first year of primary school. I was bullied back then, and it was horrible because I trusted the person who bullied me. I swear, the bully still somehow affects me to these day, but I'm much better. I know how to walk away from the toxic people and I'm much braver in expressing my feelings and myself. I'm proud of myself. My 6 years old self would be inspired by me haha.

5. How would your friend describe you?

Yup, I took a quiz for this. I don't know if it's true, though. I wanted to ask my friends about this, but they are at hostel and I'm home and they don't have phones with them, hence the quiz.

6. Do you have hobbies that others might find unusual?

I love doing DIY and journaling and a lot of friends find that unusual. I'm not really good with art, DIY is the least I can do.

7. Have you done anything illegal?

Although it's nothing big, I think that downloading things illegally is awfully wrong. If I place myself in the shoes of people whose works are illegally used by community, I would be really disappointed too. However, I still download things illegally. I don't think I'll ever stop. At least not until I become a millionaire who is able to buy anything I want so easily.

8. If you ended up being a prisoner, what likely to be the reason?

For talking about the things that I should never talk about. The topics that my friends and I sometimes discuss are the sensitive things that might get me imprisoned. Or maybe because I join the rebellions. 

9. What most likely the thing that will get you angry?

When the only thing I want is to be heard, but instead, the person I'm talking to isn't paying attention or listening to me. I feel invisible. Most of the time, I try to reason that other person's act, but when that person does it too many times to me, I won't bother to listen to him/her for days.

10. How do you handle yourself when you are angry?

I cry and listen to every emo songs I have in my playlist. And then, I'll sleep. Or if I'm angry when I'm in public, I'll just take out my notebook and write everything down. It keeps me from expressing my anger to the wrong person.

11. Best thing to eat when you are angry?

Cakes. Preferably chocolate-cheese flavored cake. It's so yummy. Oh now I'm hungry😶

The Questions (Tqa London's):

1. What was your first thought about my blog?

The first three things I look at when I visit a blog is the header, the 'about me' section and I observe the color combination. My first thought was, I love how this blog looks like! I'm not lying. I did love how your blog looks like. I love the header, although it's simple but it's in black and pink color combination, which I adore.

2. What hobby would you get into if time and money weren't an issue?

I would travel (no surprise there) everytime I'm in a holiday. I'm a student now, an SPM candidate and I literally have no time. I'm also penniless, if it weren't for my parents supporting me until this day. However, I watched a lot of movies and dramas and shows, and I read tons of books and the places where they set really made me curious and my heart screams to go outside of this town.

3. What fictional place would you most like to go? 

My Hogwarts letter is coming too late, maybe I should go there myself to ask Dumbledore about it.

4. What songs have you completely memorized?

I'm music trash. I was exposed to music since I was a little kid, and I love it so much since. I memorized a lot of Indonesian songs, from the oldies to the 2014 Indonesian songs (I stop listening to Indonesian songs since then because they all sound the same to me). My all-time-favorites are Hati Yang Luka, Dealova, Cinta Ini Membunuhku, Gelas-gelas Kaca, Ya Sudahlah, Ada Apa Denganmu and more (I can probably talk about this forever). My current favorite songs that I already memorized are City Of Stars and Attention. Oh but the song that excited me the most when I memorized it was Bole Chudiyan (Kabhie Kushi Kabhie Gham OST).

5. What game or movie universe would you most like to live in?

I was going to say the wizarding world, but since I mentioned that in question no. 3, I decided to choose Wonderland. The world is so weird and magical, and I totally love the universe of the movie.

6. What TV channel doesn't exist but really should?

A specific channel for advertisements. My brother and I talk about this a lot of times, and we agree that Malaysia needs a specific channel, only for advertisements. Although it might seem boring, and nobody would watch it, it's so convenient, because then, we wouldn't need to waste our time having to watch the advertisements in between watching a TV show. TV3 totally took 30 minutes just for the same advertisements guys, it's really inconvenient.

7. What is something that is considered a luxury, but you don't think you could live without?

Spotify Premium. It's just RM14 something a month, but I'm a student, and I have a lot more things I can buy with the monthly fee. It's considered as a luxury too, right? However, I don't think I can live without it, although I'm now living without it. I subscribed for it 3 months or so, and fell in love with the app. How could I not, when I can listen to high quality music, offline, and various choice of music, and some podcasts that I absolutely love?

8. What's worth spending more on to get the best?

For me, it's skincare. Since my skin is acne prone due to my weird teenage hormones, I spend a lot of money for skincare. I hate hating my own skin! I want to be comfortable in my own skin, so whenever I get some money, I must use some of them to buy skincare, be it facial cleanser or moisturizer or toner with the same or different brand I used the month before. Skincare is the fourth thing I spend money most on after books, prepaid reloads and foods. Ugh the struggle.

9. What is something that a ton of people are obsessed with but you just don't get a point of?

Musically. And Vine. I live in the generation that love these kind of things, and I join my friends watching Musically and Vine videos for so many times but I still don't get the point of it. Doing Youtube, and vlogging everyday, yes, I do get the point of that. But Vine, and Musically? I never get the point of loving these things and I'll never try to. I don't hate it, I just don't get the point of it.

10. Tell me about someone you envy.

I'm not really the type of person to envy someone else. Of course I envy someone with a perfect life, perfect people surrounding him/her, perfect job/school and et cetera. But that's normal, right? I just hope I wouldn't have to envy anyone, I know how dangerous envy can be.

11. What is the weirdest thing you have seen in someone else's home?

I'm pretty sure I once went into someone else's house and saw something that wasn't really a sofa, but not quite a bed and look a lot like surgical table. I don't know what it was, and I couldn't remember how it looked like because I saw it when I was around 4 or 5. The only thing I remember is the thing might be a sofa, a bed, both, or maybe a surgical table.

I post this a bit later than I thought I would, but still, I posted it! It's a big success for me. Another 5 posts to be finished before I leave this blog for a while, for good. I need to focus, and this blog is too distracting. I enjoy doing this tag, thank you again for tagging me😄 

Pypaa. xoxo


Why Converse Sneakers Are My Favorite

Coco Chanel once said "A woman with good shoes is never ugly." When I think about a good pair of shoes, I'll always think of something comfy and in the same time, not too old-fashioned. I must be comfortable in that shoes because I walk a lot, I swear. I often find myself using stairs when there are elevators and escalators available, I don't know why. I just love walking. I'm also a fast walker. Time is gold, they said, but that's not exactly why I walk so fast. I just walk fast. It's kinda like a habit, but the habit often brings advantage to me.

The only shoes that fits my criteria are sneakers. As much as I want to say I love high heels more, I honestly love my converse more. I'll use high heels on occasion that requires dressing up but in my daily life? I'd rather wear sneakers. I've been using converse sneakers since primary school and I have a lot of memories with my converse; both good and bad memories. I use my converse during school trips, I wore them a lot to my favorite place in town, I once almost got hit by a car while I was wearing converse and a lot more. *I wonder why I suddenly get nostalgic with this converse post*

I'm a huge fan of Converse sneakers, and here are some reasons why:

They are super comfortable.

As I mentioned above, I love walking and I'm a fast walker (even when I don't intend to be fast). I can walk around the places I want to without needing to have a break too many times. I can shop all I want in the shopping mall without feeling too tired because my shoes are soft and comfortable inside. It is so convenient!

Converse sneakers are unisex style shoes.

Fun fact: I'm the only girl among my siblings. Another fun fact: It's not fun. One of the pros of being the only daughter is I don't need to share my things with anyone. I can have my clothes and things all to myself. The con? If I need something, for example clothes, bags, accessories or whatever, I can't borrow my brothers' stuffs. Their stuffs are all too boyish and their stuffs wouldn't fit me well. However, as converse sneakers are unisex style shoes, I can always borrow my brothers' sneakers. They might be a little too big, but I can always tighten the shoes. No one can avoid me from wearing converse.

They are not too pricey.

Compared to other sneakers brand, for me, the most affordable is converse. There are people who own up to 10 converse sneakers, that's how affordable the sneakers are. The shoes are comfy, unisex, stylish and not too pricey. What's not to love about the sneakers?

I can design my own converse sneakers.

Who wouldn't love to have a self-designed sneakers? Not me. I would really love it. You can also design a shoes as a gift to someone, whether it's your friends, siblings or lovers based on what they like. Just go to their website, design, and you are done.

Converse go with any outfit.

I don't really have to burden my mind with the "which pair of shoes will fit my outfit" everytime I have occasion I need to attend when I have my converse with me. Whether I am going for a cute, modest, or sporty look, my converse will always match my look.

Additional fact about converse: They are not all about sneakers.  They also have many accessories to choose from. For the guys and girls who love the casual laid back style, chill out in Converse hats and bags. You can choose a backpack or sling bag depending on your mood. The sling bag is also great to bring on the plane where you can store important documents that you need to reach for without going through a big bag. Converse is a legendary brand.

If you don't have a pair of converse sneakers, what are you waiting for? Go grab a pair, since converse is totally convenient and stylish!

Pypaa. xoxo


The Raven Boys | Book Review

The Raven Boys (The Raven Cycle #1)

Author: Maggie Stiefvater
Genre: Fantasy, Young Adult, Romance, Paranormal
Pages: 416
Goodreads rating: 4.05/5
My rating: 5/5

Hello guys!

It has been a long time since I post anything here, and I missed the blog so much. I should be on hiatus, considering my March test result wasn't so good, but I passed nonetheless, Alhamdulillah. But I want to post something so that my blog wouldn't be full of webs and that sort of things.

So, last term break, I read a lot of books, and one of the books is The Raven Boys. Before I start writing about what I think about the book, you may read the synopsis first.


“There are only two reasons a non-seer would see a spirit on St. Mark’s Eve,” Neeve said. “Either you’re his true love . . . or you killed him.”

It is freezing in the churchyard, even before the dead arrive.

Every year, Blue S
argent stands next to her clairvoyant mother as the soon-to-be dead walk past. Blue herself never sees them—not until this year, when a boy emerges from the dark and speaks directly to her.

His name is Gansey, and Blue soon discovers that he is a rich student at Aglionby, the local private school. Blue has a policy of staying away from Aglionby boys. Known as Raven Boys, they can only mean trouble.

But Blue is drawn to Gansey, in a way she can’t entirely explain. He has it all—family money, good looks, devoted friends—but he’s looking for much more than that. He is on a quest that has encompassed three other Raven Boys: Adam, the scholarship student who resents all the privilege around him; Ronan, the fierce soul who ranges from anger to despair; and Noah, the taciturn watcher of the four, who notices many things but says very little.

For as long as she can remember, Blue has been warned that she will cause her true love to die. She never thought this would be a problem. But now, as her life becomes caught up in the strange and sinister world of the Raven Boys, she’s not so sure anymore.

From Maggie Stiefvater, the bestselling and acclaimed author of the Shiver trilogy and The Scorpio Races, comes a spellbinding new series where the inevitability of death and the nature of love lead us to a place we’ve never been before. (source: Goodreads)


I heard about this book tons of times. The book reviews of this book are everywhere; on Youtube, Goodreads and some blogs and websites. My favorite Youtubers mentioned this book and it was in a lot of book recommendations I watched/read. The book was on my e-reader bookshelf for so long, and one certain day, I finally found my way to this book. And I wondered... why didn't I read this book earlier?

"If Blue was to kiss her true love, he would die. For a long time, this bothered Blue. The warning was specific, certainly, but in the way of a fairy tale. It didn't say how her true love would die. It didn't say how long after the kiss he would survive. Did it have to be a kiss on the lips? Would a chaste peck on the back of his palm prove as deadly?" {Excerpt of Chapter 1, The Raven Boys}

The whole theme intrigued me. The excerpt I put above wasn't in the first page of the book, but I was hooked from the very first page. The very first sentence. As much as I shouldn't, I love paranormal things; it fascinates me, and Blue's family traded in predictions and I loved the theme so so so much. I didn't read a lot of fantasies in the past, but I'm sure this book is a good one.

I adored Blue's family. It's the way I adored the Song/Covey family in To All The Boys I Loved Before trilogy, the family in Strange And Beautiful Sorrows of Ava Lavender and almost like how I loved the Weasleys. The women Blue lives with are so amazing I wished I could jump into the book and be apart of the family. Not just they had fantastic ability that I really loved, they also had the attitude that I admire!

The plot is interesting and it was a bit slow paced because it was a character-driven book, but that's okay for me. The theme had me hooked and I was fascinated by the paranormal thingy.

Now lets talk about the Raven Boys.

Richard Gansey III: Gansey oh Gansey. A lot of people who read this book didn't really like Gansey because of his obliviousness of how he hurt people by using his privilege. But I loved him. He was so ambitious and he cared a lot about people around him although sometimes the way he helped people around him hurts them. He'd do anything for them, I swear. And it's so adorable.

Adam Parrish: Do I need to mention again how much I love the name 'Adam'? I get really excited whenever I see the name 'Adam' whether it's in a book, movie, anywhere. And Adam Parrish is so lovable. He was the only Aglionby boy that was not filthy rich and he was so independent. I cared for him a lot. He's like my little child (except that I don't have a child) that I want to protect forever. 

Noah: My heart broke for Noah. Although his character didn't really stand out like the others, but I loved him as much as I did the others. I wanted to give him a hug for what he had been through. A lot of hugs.

RONAN LYNCH: The only reason I write Ronan's name in capital letters is because I really really admire, adore, like, love him. He was so complex, mysterious, interesting and I need more Ronan in the next book please. He was the kind of boy that looks scary outside but has a very gentle side of him that is hidden. I mean, he took care of a little raven, isn't that cute? I can't not give the book 5 stars when Ronan is in this. 

To conclude, I love the characters, the whole theme of this book and again, I love the characters. The characters are the main reason I'll be continuing this series. And lets hope for more Ronan. And Blue sorting out her love interest issue. 

"She wasn't interested in telling other people's futures. She was interested in going out and finding her own."

I hope you enjoy the review, and do comment below if you already read the book! Au revoir, assalamualaikum😄


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